Feeling Blue

One day, some day, I will share this post.... my first "feeling blue" in San Augustine post.... I am overwhelmed with grief over the tragedy in Japan that unfolds new developments every hour, overwhelmed by friends that have been stricken with illnesses where their time in this life is closer coming to an end, and overwhelmed with extra duties and seemly unobtainable deadlines at work, and the death of a valuable, loved, honorable, and wise man whose life held history, fun, love, wisdom, and courage that is now a memory and will never be added to again who left behind a wife of 63 years and sons and daughters to carry on. Young men go off to serve their country leaving behind worried parents and friends and some never return. Why must these things happen? ...suffering. I am a fixer, but I cannot fix any of this. Thinking also that one day, we will all suffer a similar fate. I am not so worried about me, but the people that will grieve because of a loved one's suffering and my own. Knowing that I brought children in this world, that have a death sentence, also. Is living worth dying for?

I was hoping to have an answer before I published this.  Instead, I have only opened up more questions.  It seems that living one day at a time, having hope in an eternal life, enjoying each moment on earth we are given, and taking time for relaxing and taking care of yourself are all that I can come up with.  We will know all the answers by and by.

How many countless people have felt the same way, asked the similar questions down through the ages? The fact is we were born into existence with a natural will to survive and to work and mingle together. How we choose to live our lives makes it what it is. Sure we are going to die, but what are we going to do in the meantime? What legacy will we leave the ones dearest to our hearts? How will we teach our children to live nobly and prepare them for the life after. There is a life hereafter, there is a higher power, and none of this is a mistake.

I wrote this a year or so ago and was too disturbed to actually publish it. Since then I have watched the Japanese people work together to overcome their hardships, prayers for friends have been answered, and more reflection has given me hope that God still works in mysterious ways, we will know all the answers by and by, and God has left us a Comforter who helps us in this life on earth showing us joy, hope, and peace until Jesus comes. 

Beep! Beep!

Beep! Beep!  I saw a road runner today.  It ran across FM 1750 in front of my car.  I was amazed that I was actually seeing a real version of a road runner and not the cartoon version.  I feel that I could just yell "Hey wait, I want to ask you something", "Why are you so mean to that coyote"?  Why can't you just be friends?"  This road runner had the same comical sprint, long legs, and distinctive shaggy head as the cartoon one.  I thought road runners lived mostly in dry areas like Central and West Texas and New Mexico.  In fact, it is the state bird of New Mexico.  They eat mostly meat and are famous for catching and eating snakes like the rattlesnake because they are so fast.  They run at speeds of 15 to 20 miles an hour.  The Piney Woods of East Texas has many hidden treasures including the fast and famous Great Road Runner.  Sorry not enough time to get pictures this time.